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THE MOST EVIL EVER

2012-01-01T04:22:00.004+08:00

An exhausted day ending with insomnia night.

There was something,

I hide it deeply in my heart.
Build up a strong restriction about it and start new social in new life.
But why still breakable?!

It change my lifestyle.
It make my dignity fall to the deepest.
It drop my confidence once it appear.
I will always remember what impact it take to me because I know I will break it in someday, but not now.

I almost forgotten there was a such thing in my heart.
But why it always appear and disturb in my new life?!

I refused to.. because of it.
I escape to.. because of it.
If it were not happen, every thing will FINE

No ones are suitable to be my good listener.
THE MOST EVIL EVER

Merry Christmas...

2011-12-24T21:56:00.002+08:00

Since the day I read Doraemon comics, I hope I can own a time stopper.
This never change in my wishlist.
I can do a lot of thing if I own a time stopper.
I can solve a lot of problem if I own a time stopper.

I know it's impossible.
I just want to complete my revision of all subject since my FINAL is coming soon..
I want to get high distinction in this semester.

Santa claus,
this is my Christmas wish.

imo

2011-10-14T17:42:00.003+08:00

well.. I dislike myself to be excluded
Therefore I do my best every time..
I thought I have special ability among them..
Actually I'm not..
I don't have ability to speak

NEW Environment

2011-06-11T01:33:00.003+08:00

Take a long break for half year, finally it's ended.

"Hey, what you studying?"
"I'm not studying on any undergraduate school anymore."
"Ah, Why?"
"I never meet the minimum requirement for any college."
"Then what's your result?"
"1A+ with 9G"

Don't judge me like I could study well, definitely not.
Everyday reading books, doing homework.
Actually I'm daze on the books, copying homework from others.
I doing repeatedly for a 10 years.

End my bluffing here..
Finally could release my strength of bluff.

What you study now?
Why you choose this course?
Do you think you can graduates on this course?

Those question has been asked many times, friends, strangers, presentations, journal writing test.

Started my college life recently.
But still not able to put down my dignity, to recognize my classmates.
Since commence of study, I have been asked many questions.

"Do you have accounting basic?"
"No."
"Then why you choose business course?"
"Because I changed my mind from Software Engineering to Actuarial Science."

Oh yeah, I'm studying Actuarial Science right now, the most difficult course, I think.

But, why Actuarial Science require accounting basic? Isn't AS is an Science courses?
Actually it's Finance & Investment, satisfy?

Where I study?
Liverpool John Moores?

In the field of technology, it's competitive, difficult to stand out from IT fields.

For a guy who study IT course, what's the career he did?

Computer repairing?

How far I can fly? If I'm studying Software Engineering? Founder of microsoft alike company?

I'm just a weak in competitive IT fields, though everyone think that I'm IT genius.

Therefore, I changed my mind.

But, business isn't a easiest career.

I need a Chartered Financial Analyst certificate.

Therefore I choosed Finance related course.

I want to be the first person who getting over million's salary a month without being a BOSS.

The First Person EVER.

Despite I could write a lot of content in blogging, but I couldn't write well in journal writing test, which is the coursework and will be calculated into final exam marks.

I feel stress in my class.

Lot of them are holding excellent results.

They are more serious than me.

Badminton Competition coming soon.

How long I can uphold in this competition, with unfamiliar opponents?

For whom asking me about my teenager life,

I'm serious while study, but crazy while playing.

I seperate it clearly.

I don't crazy, because I don't want to hurt.

It's needed to take seriously now. Not playing.

I'm upset with who didn't trust me, didn't take it as serious.

It's my last request!

geuh deh neun Darling!

2011-04-01T21:45:00.002+08:00

Love Light.

I'm a loner

2011-01-26T23:47:00.002+08:00

I never being the main character,
I never being care by other.

Whenever I appear, it's just an extra and useless.
Whenever I disappear, it's just like nothing happen.

No matter how I joking, no one could enjoy.
No matter how I express my mood, everyone view it as a story.

I did well, no one appreciate.
I did worst, everyone cursing.

Whenever my mood turn down, no one wants to concern.
Whenever I share my mood, no one could understand.

Everyone want to have a intimate friend, but I am not be chosen.

If I end my life, no one will lost anything. How pity I am.

Oetoriya Oetoriya Daradiridaradu
Oetoriya Oetoriya Daradiridaraduu
Oetoriya Oetoriya Sarange Seulpeohago
Sarange Nunmuljitneun Oetori
Sad Sad Sad Sad Sad Sad Sad Tonight
gaseumi apa
Oh No No No No No Body Knows
mam molla
One Two Three Four Five Six Seven Night
su manheun bameul
Seumyeo Nareul Dallaego Isseo

No matter what I did, I always be the ignorance and ignored.

Goodbye, social world

Annyeong!

2011-01-16T23:08:00.001+08:00

nae du nun eum ba ra bo myeo
mal eum hae jol rae neol sarang hae

The 2010

2011-01-02T01:49:00.002+08:00

I arouses people laugh, always joking.
No I'm not entertain others.
Just only to let me be happier.

I emo.
No that's my default expression.

I timid.
No I want it to be perfect.

2011 is the tough year for me.
I had to get rid of others' helping.
I drive my future myself.

But it's dark.
No any street light.
No any signs.
Only a short range of visibility.
Where's the exit?

No, I seen a glimmer.
Is it? Or it's not?
No that's not.
I must be wrong.
That's an illusion.

I have to always remind myself,
that's not like what I'm thinking.
It's not.
Focus! Don't be confuse.
Don't repeat stupid matter again.
Don't sacrifice.
Just let it.
It will be yours if it is.

It's 2010.
No it's 2011.
Not 2010 anymore. Not to escaping anymore.
It's adult now. Not be offer discount with title of student anymore.
Have to face it though don't want to face.
Let me be different. Get the feeling of 'Whoa' from others.
I will, be stronger. fit. different. And different.
Promise myself, I can do it.

Thank You

2010-11-19T12:29:00.002+08:00

After 5 years, finally I'm graduated.
Will not wearing school uniform anymore.
During the school life, I'm asking myself, when I can graduated to become an adult.
Now, it's only 3 month. I will become a truly adult.

During the graduation,
I thanked a lot of people who helped me a lot.

This is the touching ever at the time
My tears drop at the moment.
Pn.Chai, thanks once again.
You could save a lot of student. It's true.

Pn.Norsoffiah,
Thank you. My favourited teacher.
But, Sorry. I'm betrayed your hope.

Thanks, my friends. Especially Kee Shen and Dao Hong.
Fortunately I'm classmate with you while Form 3.
Because I'm together with you. And I got the feeling of regret when taking PMR result.
This strength helped to study. Thank You.

Thanks again, to someone.
Thank you for pointing my defect.
Every time you pointed, I only nod my head but not to change instead.
I will change. But have to take some time to change. Maybe tomorrow, or maybe after 10 years.

Really,
I pleased. We have fate to study together. But the fate is went to the edge.
We shall meet again if we are destined for each other.

**Salute**

Enemies

2010-09-01T19:05:00.003+08:00

Ya, I don't know how to maintain the friendship
My tolerance has exceed to limit
You play overly at first,
Don't blame me play too overboard

No one I can confide to.
Then I will hold by myself.

奥·妙

2010-08-19T23:52:00.002+08:00

一种的奥妙
不能以第一次来判断
必须透过过程中
欣赏它的好

什么一见钟情
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那才是

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